Date: January 4
To: Dr. R. Anniston
From: John D. Connors
RE: Essay/Letter For The Friday Night Group Session
Dear Dr. Anniston,
As per your request, and as required by my parole officer, I am writing to you to tell you of the events that led up to this writing. At the outset, let me reiterate that I am doing this under protest. The best way that I can explain all of this is to write it in story form so I can keep the events straight.
It began two years ago when I was sixteen. I was living my life of semi-normalcy just fine. Then it happened, as an accident, I think.
I have three sisters, a mother and a dog. Dad left when he 'found out' that he was as queer as a three-dollar bill. Now there is the one you need in these sessions instead of me.
Just for the record, my mother's name is Maggie, my oldest sister's name is Barb and the twin's names are Jenny and Jodi. Barb is two years older than I, and the twins are two years younger.
We lived in a three-bedroom house so Mom and I are the only ones that had our own rooms. Mine was next to the bathroom, which didn't help at all in the mornings. I could hear the toilet flushing and you know what that does to you first thing in the morning. Most of the time I had a pee-hard that would ache so bad that by the time my chance came along, it took a while before I could get anything out. I figured out early on that if I sat to pee when that happened that I would make less of a mess.
It started on one of those mornings.
It was a Saturday morning. My alarm clock didn't wake me but the constant flushing did. I lay there, as I always did, listening to the chatter and movements in the hallway. It seemed to die down so I darted to the door. I was in such a hurry that I hadn't realized that my pajama pants were tented to their max when I opened my door. Barb was in the bathroom and the other two were standing right there.
I glanced at their faces then followed their glares. Their eyes and their mouths popped open when they saw my problem. The only thing I have ever worn to bed was pajama-bottoms with nothing underneath. I noticed a grin forming on both of their faces. Jodi licked her lips and Jenny laughed at her.
"It looks like someone has a problem," Jodi said in a whisper. Mom worked two jobs and slept in on Saturday.
Being the only male in the house, I got teased a lot. I even got it from Mom once in a while.
"Yes I do and no, you can't see it," I said. They were so distracted that when Barb came out of the bathroom, I slipped in, shut the door and ignored their protests.
Let me say right here that since I hit puberty I have thought of my sisters when I masturbate. I understand, from our sessions, that this is normal so why am I being punished for it? It didn't help either that whenever they felt like being bad they would swat me on, or even grab, my ass or they would sit on my lap and grind their ass into my crotch.
I turned and locked the door then sat and concentrated on draining my bladder.
"Make sure you clean up your mess in there before you come out," I heard someone yell.
"Fuck off," I said low enough that they just barely heard it.
"Whip it out cutie," Jenny whispered through the door. Then I heard her and Jodi laughing.
I had half a mind to go ahead and take my shower and make them wait. I knew better though. I knew that they would get even some day. Dad never did get around to putting the extra bathroom in the basement, so I had to suffer.
I finished up and went downstairs to the kitchen. Barb was already there making her usual breakfast of two pieces of toast and a glass of orange juice. She was running late for work, which meant that someone else would have to clean up her mess.
I grabbed the Cheerio's, a bowl and the milk and sat down. I hadn't scooted up to the table yet and was reading the back of the box while I sat on the edge of the chair. Jenny came in and stood right next to me.
"You're a pretty good sport, ya know," she said. "Living in a house full of women must be tough on you."
I sat up straight and looked for a sign of a grin or something on her face. There was none. "Ok," I said. "What's the joke?"
"I guess I deserved that," she said as she put her hand on my shoulder. "No, I'm serious. With all of the teasing we do you should stay mad at us but you don't."
"Yeah, I know but I can't stay mad at you two," I poured my cereal into the bowl and reached for the milk. "Especially when you run around here looking the way you do now."
"Why, what do you mean?" she asked, looking herself over.
"DUUUHHH!" I said. "Let's see. You have on one of my old t-shirts and it comes just above your crotch when you're standing still. On a good day, it rides up your ass when you walk. I can see that you don't have on a bra and you are wearing a thong right now. Jodi does the same thing."
"You noticed," she said as she giggled and bounced in place.
"How can I not," I asked as I poured my milk.
"I was hoping..."
"That I wasn't a fag? No, dear sister, I'm not." I said in a semi-nasty tone.
"If you would give a girl a chance ... I was going to say that I was hoping that you would notice me ... being dressed this way, I mean." She hadn't moved her hand and now gave my shoulder a gentle squeeze. "I wanted you to ... notice me."
"Now I'm convinced that there's a joke in here somewhere," I said, as I looked her over again.
"No. There is no joke. I'm serious," she said as she moved her right leg around my right leg so it was between both of mine. This brought her tits within a few inches of my mouth.
I looked at her face. I wasn't sure what I saw there but it wasn't laughter.
"You ARE serious, aren't you?" I asked as I put my hand on her waist, which for some reason seemed a natural thing to do.
I could feel her shiver as a chill went through her. She placed her hand over mine and moved them both down to her butt. There was nothing there but silky-smooth skin. She removed her hand, giving me free reign to do whatever I wanted, then leaned down and whispered in my ear to turn my chair towards her. I did. I was mesmerized by what I was feeling, both inside and out. Needless to say, I was as hard as a rock.
As soon as I turned my chair, Jenny reached her right leg over mine and sat in my lap facing me. She reached for my other hand and planted it on her other cheek. I felt another shudder run through her body. Once she knew that my hands were going to stay put, she moved hers up and wrapped them around my neck then drove her hard-nippled tits into my chest.
The chair I was sitting on had rungs about half way up from the floor and that is where my sister placed her feet. Using the leverage point there and her arms around my neck, she scooted forward. Her thong-covered pussy was now right over my pajama covered dick. The thickness of two pieces of fabric was all that separated the two.
"You know that we..." I started.
" ... should do this," she finished. "I want to feel close to you. Turn us back around so I can lean against the table. Then we can talk about it."
She stood as I turned the chair and scooted it a little closer to the table. Jenny sat back down in the same spot and put her feet up on the seat beside me. This brought her knees up and opened her legs even farther. I was going nuts.
"I wanted to see what it felt like to be sitting in your lap this way and have your hands on my body." She took my hands and brought them to her tits. "I want you to touch my whole body. Please."
I started to bring my hands away. "Jenny..."
"Shut up and enjoy it. I do." Her eyes closed and her head went back slightly as she ground my hands into her tits.
Jenny kept my hands there for a minute then moved them down her body to her waist. She let go just long enough to reach down and pull her t-shirt up and off. Then she brought my hands back up to her tits.
"JENNY!" I 'yelled' in a whisper. "What if Mom... ?"
"She got called into work early this morning and Jodi is staying in our room for now. She knows that I wanted to talk to you." She brought her hands up to my neck and started lightly raking my chest with her nails.
I couldn't believe what was going on. A few minutes ago I was eating my, now forgotten, breakfast. Now I have my fourteen-year-old sister sitting in my lap with nothing but a four-inch triangle of cloth preventing me from seeing everything she owned. The nerve endings started jumping all over my body.
Jenny was now moving my hands all over her body and I was getting more and more excited. When we got to the top of her thong she hooked my thumbs in the waistband and pulled down. Showing her athletic abilities (she was a cheerleader in grade school and tried out for the high school squad) she lifted her legs over my head and brought them together in front of me. She then, using my hands, slowly pulled her thong up and off.
On my own now, I ran my hands back down her legs and back to her butt. As I kneaded her cheeks, she spread her legs, out to each side, as far as they would go. This opened her up even more. My hands were already there so I moved my thumbs up along the crease between her thigh and her pussy. Her hips started gyrating slowly at first then got faster. It was as if she was trying to get my thumbs into her hole.
"DAMN THAT FEELS GOOD!" she shouted.
I was using a gentle touch because I didn't want to hurt her in any way. I got my thumbs as far as the top of her slit then moved them inward, touching just the top part. That's when I first noticed that she had no hair. Her pussy was as smooth as a baby's bottom. I pulled my thumbs down, tracing her outer lips and her hips started bouncing on my lap.
From there, I moved my thumbs to her inner lips and went back up. She was so wet by this time that I thought she had pissed herself. Going upward, I finally touched her clit and gently pushed. She pushed back and started moving her hips in circles. I got my thumbs on both sides of her clit and pulled outward, causing the hood to pull back. I remember thinking how much I wanted to throw her up on the table and bury my face between her legs.
Jenny's head had been lying on the table but she suddenly brought it upright and looked into my eyes. Her eyes were a vision of pure lust and their hazel color had changed to a deep green. Her breathing was uncontrolled and her hands were all over my chest and face. A smile slowly grew on her face and her hands went down to the hole in the front of my pants. She reached in and took hold of my dick and softly squeezed.
As my sister pulled my dick out of its restraints, it brushed along her warm, wet, open pussy, leaving a trail of pre-cum in its path. Her tiny hands wrapped around it and she started to stroke its length. By this time she was bouncing in rhythm with each stroke.
Jenny settled down a little, reached for my hands and pulled them away. Then she moved my dick between her outer lips and started moving it from side to side. She seemed to get wetter with each pass. It wasn't long before she was bouncing again, sliding my dick up and down her slit. With each down stroke, the head of my dick hit her clit.
"OH ... OH ... GAAAAAAWWWD! I'M CUUUUUMMMMMAAAAAAAHHAHHAAHHHH!" She was bouncing out of control.
Each stroke was getting longer and wetter. Finally, on an up stroke, she pushed my dick down and right into place. When she came down, my dick shot right up to the hilt into her wet, velvety-smooth hole. By this time, we were both so far gone that neither of us thought to pull me out.
"I ... I'M ... HERE IT ... AAAAAHAAAHAAAHAHAHAHAAH!" I shot the strongest load of spunk I've ever shot in my life, right up into my sister, as far as it would go.
It took a while but we finally started calming down and for some reason, I stayed hard inside her. She looked up at me with a big shit-eatin' grin on her face.
"I told you I was hoping you'd notice me," she said as she moved her hips again. I felt another minor squirt shoot out of my dick.
"That's no fair," we heard from the kitchen door. "Now we're not twins."
We were both startled. Jodi had been standing there watching us.
"How long have you been standing there?" Jenny asked with a smile.
"Long enough to know that I want some of that." She walked over and reached right into where our sister and I were joined. Instead of touching me, she shoved her middle finger into Jenny's newly fucked pussy. I could feel her moving it around a little then she pulled it out, sucked it clean then smiled. "I like it."
"Then he's yours," Jenny said as she pulled herself off of me. It was a let down for both of us. My only consolation was that soon I was going to have another pussy taking its place.
Jodi took Jenny's place in my lap. She reached down and massaged my dick for a minute then pulled her hand to her mouth and licked the length of it.
"Mmmm. That tastes good," she said with a smile. "I'm gonna want more later." Her hand continued the massage. "Tell me something. If you saw two girls eating each other, would it make you mad or horny?"
"I don't know. Why?" I asked.
"Well, You're mad at Daddy because of..."
"Wait a minute," I interrupted. "I don't care how he conducts his life. I'm mad because he hurt his family by leaving. We haven't even received so much as a Christmas card from him in two years."
"So ... if another, or two other members of this family are having sex with each other and are of the same sex, you wouldn't be mad?"
"No." I replied. "May I assume that the two that you are referring to are you and Jenny?"
"Yes, you may assume that," she replied proudly.
"All four of you can be having sex together and it wouldn't bother me, unless you have plans to exclude me from now on." I said as I pulled her t-shirt off.
"Weeeeeeelllllllll," they said in unison.
"Mom and Barb have been, shall we say, close for a while now," Jenny said.
"And Jenny and I have always experimented together," Jodi said as she raised her legs for me to pull her thong off of her. "We just started oral sex about a year ago and I think that we're getting pretty good at it." She reached down and started rubbing my dick on her clit. "OOOOOOOHHHHH. That DOES feel good."
"Oh yeah, there's something else." Jenny said. "Jodi is more of a virgin than me. I popped my cherry last year in a stunt I did cheerleading. Hers is still there."
Jodi started bouncing on my lap, sliding my dick up and down along that gorgeous, wet slit of hers. Suddenly, she did the same thing our sister did. She pushed my dick down and into the right spot. On the next stroke, she rammed herself down as hard as she could. I ramrodded right through her cherry and in to the hilt. My balls felt like they followed my dick into her depths.
"OOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHH! THAT HURT! DON'T MOVE!" she said as she wrapped her arms and legs around me the best she could. She stayed there for a minute or two before she started to squirm. "It felt ... like someone ... stabbed me," she said between breaths.
"I'm sorry," I whispered into her ear.
"I'm not," she said as she started moving again. Looking into my eyes, she said, "I've waited a long time for this. I only wish that I had been your first. I love you Johnny."
"I love you too babe," I said. I didn't know at the time why I did it but I reached down and kissed my sister. Not like she was my sister but as a lover. We both started to move then.
I stopped and motioned for Jenny to clear the table off. With Jodi still impaled, I mustered up all my strength, stood up and laid her butt on the edge of the table. I helped her lay down then I put her ankles on my shoulders and just looked at her.
"You're beautiful," I said. I started moving slowly in and out of her.
"I love you," she said again. "I've loved ... you for ... a long ... time." She said between my thrusts. "I am ... now your ... woman."
My response was to increase the momentum and strength of my thrusts. I looked down at the blur between our legs just as I felt her vaginal muscles get tighter.
"I think ... OH JOHNNY ... I'M ... FASTER ... HARDER ... FASTER ... AAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHA!" Her ass was coming off the table and she was using her heals to pull herself into me. She was meeting every thrust with the same intensity as mine.
"I'M GONNA ... ARE YOU READY? I'M GONNA FILL YOU UP ... I'M CUMMAAAAAAHHH!" I came in Jodi stronger than I had in Jenny. It was more intense.
Jodi grabbed my neck and pulled me down, folding her legs between us, and drew my lips to hers. In seconds our tongues were fighting to the beat of our joined body parts. What seemed like hours passed and we both started slowing down. Jodi moved her legs from between us and let them drop off the edge of the table.
I was still in her and giving her short little jabs with my semi hard dick. Each time I did that my pelvic bone hit her clit just right. It didn't take much for my dick to get real hard again and for her to start gasping with pleasure.
"I'll give you all day to get off of me," she said as she smiled. "The rest of this family is out of luck. I'm claiming you for myself. OOOOHHHH. That feels sooooo good."
"Are you telling me that you won't share me with your sister?" I asked.
"Put an 's' on that. Barb wants her chance too," she said. "What do you think of Mom?" That was said with a questioning smile.
"Let me think about that one," I said. I leaned down and whispered, "I'll always come back to you."
The three of us spent the next couple of hours ... um ... getting to 'know' each other. We tried several positions that we had heard of and we found that it was more comfortable in the living room on the carpet.
"It's time to show you what we have been doing for the last year," Jodi said. She took Jenny's hand and led her to the couch where they got into the sixty-nine position with Jodi on top. They started licking and sucking my cum out of each other to the moans and groans of their mutual pleasure. It was hard to tell who came first because their screaming orgasms were each muffled by the other's pussy. I was completely spent and dozed off.
I awoke to the sound of a muffled argument in the kitchen. One of the voices was Jenny's and the other was Barb. It was then that I realized that I was still naked, lying on the living room floor. I was dead meat. I got up and started for the stairs, careful not to make a sound, but it was too late.
"And where do you think you're going young man?" That was Mom. I had already grabbed my clothes so I put them in front of myself as I turned around. Mom was sitting in her easy chair, the one place I hadn't even bothered to look when I woke up.
"Uh ... hi Mom," I stuttered. "I, uh ... didn't know..."
"That I was here?" she snapped. "That is obvious."
The girls had stopped their arguing and now stood in the kitchen door. Jodi was just coming down the stairs and looked as if she had been crying.
"What have you got to say for yourself, Jonathon?" she said in that 'voice'. "Did you enjoy yourself today?"
"Well ... you see ... I was in the..."
"I asked," she raised her voice to the next octave. "Did you have a good time while I was at work."
"Well ... ye ... yes and no?" I said.
"It was a simple yes or no question," she said. "It is either yes or it is no. Which is it?"
I studied my mother's face for a sign of anger. There was none. I couldn't tell, by her face, which would be the right answer. "Yes"
"Good." She smiled. "Now we're getting somewhere. Tell me, do you want to continue doing what you did today? Yes or no?"
"Ye ... yes."
My mother stood up and walked over to me. She looked me up and down then started walking around me. I must have turned three or four shades of red before she was in front of me again. She looked me up and down again then grabbed my clothes right out of my hands, leaving me totally defenseless.
"You won't need these," she said as she tossed them into the chair she just got out of. "And girls, we won't need these," she said as she started to unbutton the front of her dress. She didn't stop until all of her clothes were in the chair with mine. All three of my sisters followed suit.
What do you say to your mother when you are standing there, in all of your glory, and so are your mother and three sisters? Oh, yeah. And your dick starts standing at attention? You turn another four shades of red and don't say a word.
"Mother," Jodi said harshly. "You're embarrassing him. I asked you not to. Please Mother." She came over and stood between Mom and me, facing Mom.
"Ok dear." Mom said as she and the others started laughing. "It seems that your youngest sister is in love with you John, and she really wants you all to herself. Everyone come in here and sit. We NEED to talk."
Mom took the clothes out of her chair, tossed them in a heap on the floor and sat down. I sat at the farthest end of the couch, Barb sat at the other end and Jenny sat in the middle. Jodi sat in my lap.
"Let me begin by saying that we are no longer going to make fun of each other in this house." She squirmed around in the chair a little, making herself comfortable. "If you don't know the difference between laughing WITH someone and laughing AT someone, let me know right now." She paused.
"For as far back in my family as anyone knows, all of the women have been bi-sexual. I see that it's no different here, as is with your female cousins. Your father and I did not break up because he is gay. I knew about that when we got married. He left us for another man. Why he hasn't stayed in touch with you kids is beyond me."
"Now for the current events." She got very serious. "What you kids have done today is wrong on so many different levels it isn't funny. What I am going to allow is even worse." She paused for a minute to collect her thoughts.
"Barb and I have been having ... sex ... for a couple of months now so I can't very well condemn you for what you did today. I am going to allow it to continue but there have to be ground rules."
Jodi threw her arms around my neck and ground her ass into my lap.
"First of all, force and coercion will not be tolerated. Second, John and I will never have sex, for two reasons. One, I don't want to have sex with a man again. That doesn't mean that I won't suck your cum out of someone's pussy. And two, I just don't think it's right for a mother and son to have sex." We all sort of giggled. "Besides, you'll have your ... bed ... full with your sisters, if Jodi will ever let you go." We all giggled again.
Jodi hugged me tighter. "Nope, he's mine," she said with a big grin.
"Clothes will now be optional," she continued. "Girls, you might want to wear your panties on 'those' days of the month. John, if one of your sisters is wearing their panties, they are off limits. You're old enough to understand why. All three of them are on birth control so there is no worry there."
"Last, for now, is that there is no more privacy or embarrassment if someone wants to have sex." She paused, as all of our eyes got bigger with surprise. "You are free to have sex whenever and wherever you want."
"You mean like right now and right here we could have sex?" Jodi asked. "Like this?" She raised herself up, reached between her legs and grabbed my dick. She then put it at her entrance and slowly lowered herself all the way down. I looked at Mom to get a reaction. She smiled.
"You may be the youngest but you're a fast learner," Mom said. "That is exactly what I meant."
Jodi had been sitting sideways on my lap but was now turning her back to me. She didn't miss a stroke as her feet hit the floor for support. Now she could increase her bouncing. She leaned back against me and I brought my hands up and around her to massage her tits.
"OOOOOHHHH YYEEEEAAAAAHHH!" she moaned as she increased her motion again. I was so close but I was trying to hold back until she was ready.
Just as I felt that familiar surge running through my balls to my dick, I felt Jodi's vaginal muscles start to tighten. It felt like she was sucking me off with her pussy.
"OH ... OH ... OH..." she grunted with each down stroke. "I'M GONNA ... GIVE ... I WANT..." She was babbling now. I knew what was coming next. "I'M GONNAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAAHAHAH!"
Jodi was almost uncontrollable. I had to hold her down to keep my dick in her. I was helping her ram herself into my lap with every thrust.
"I'M THERE!" I screamed. "HERE ... IT ... COMES!" I screamed again as I let my load go and it painted my sister's vaginal walls. It felt like it lasted an hour. I didn't think we were ever coming down.
We finally did as our breathing came back to normal. I never did figure out why I could stay hard while I was in my sisters. I guess it was because they were so sexy looking.
Jodi finally came to her senses and started to move. I don't know how she did it but she managed to turn herself completely around. She had pulled the ottoman over and was now lying back on it. I was still in her. I pulled her legs up and propped them on my shoulders. She bent her knees out so I could get a good look at her entire body.
"I want you to stay in me all of the time, Johnny," she said as she put my hands on her tits. "You feel so good in there."
"You are the sexiest thing I've ever seen," I told her. "I want to stay right where I'm at."
"Major announcement everyone," she said as she looked at the others. "When Johnny cums in me, it is staying there." She looked back at me. "Some day I want it to make me a baby, or two, or three."
She got no answer because the others were busy with each other. Mom was still in her chair with Jenny licking her out. Barb was on the floor with her head under Jenny, licking her pussy and finger-fucking herself. We didn't see any reason to disturb them. Jodi started moving on my shaft again.
The sleeping arrangements changed along with everything else that night. Jodi moved into my room and Barb moved into Mom's room. Jenny was happy having a room all to herself. That way she could visit whichever room she wanted. Her visits to our room became less frequent over the next two years.
I didn't know it but the twins went off of their pills, with Moms blessing, when they turned sixteen. The night of their birthday was one big orgy with me making love to each of the twins at least three times. I was exhausted. They both became pregnant that night. Three weeks later, they went to the doctor and confirmed it.
You know the rest, Doc. I was arrested for statutory rape and sentenced to five years probation. I also have to see you once a week.
What you don't know is this. In order for the girls to stay with Mom, I had to confess to raping my sisters. We all lied in court and should all get an Academy Award for our performance.
Mom sold the house with the story that she needed the money to pay for my lawyers. Also a lie. Dad heard about it and came to the rescue. He paid for the lawyers and asked nothing in return. He's not such a bad guy after all. Shortly after the trial, Mom and the girls moved and changed their names. Where they went, they didn't have to go through the courts to do it.
Just so you know, Jodi has given me a handsom son and Jenny had my beautiful daughter. Grandma has them spoiled already.
I am sending you two copies of this letter. In the other one I have left out all references to any sexual activity by Barb and Mom so that all of the blame still falls on me. I hope you make the right choice if you have to show one of them to the authorities. By the time you read this I will have joined my family and you will never hear from me again. Dad has set up several forwarding addresses, the first one being in Canada, so it will throw everyone off. He has also disappeared and changed his name.
Of all the people I've told my story to, I get the feeling that you are the only one that understood. I hope I'm right. I don't see anything wrong with my love for my sisters, especially Jodi. No matter what else happens, I want to spend the rest of my life with her. We are meant to love someone in our lifetime. My love is for my sister.
I hope you stay well.
John